Life Debt

yes, perhaps this could be an unexplainable retrograde. our slates are not wiped clean and the door cannot be closed and what could have been simply would not materialize. we have debts unpaid, both you and i. and this, seemingly and endless repayment. taking turns to pay for what we owe. i'm still pretty much clueless and i know by all sensibility, it's time to run again but there always seem to be this invincible force holding me back, and making me a slave to it all. this defies all logic, which is the very thing that i am posed to be made of.