I do not know how to deal with this. I cannot trust you and yet I keep wanting to hope that we may yet work out.

We are so far apart that I can hardly see a future in us. You keep insisting that you know that this what you want but I cannot see it. 

I am not a reservation that you make with a ring and expect to be sitting pretty on the shelf waiting for you. This takes effort and I do not see it.

We are supposed to be sharing our lives in the future but you build this wall, determined to shut me out and keep me at arm's length. You throw bits from time to time, to keep me lingering but it's not enough. 

I'm not sure I can do this.