Numbness

the inability to feel, the tears that no longer flow, the only words that can be mastered, the face that is hidden in company, the emotions that have been put away, like the clothes that are no longer worn. where has the heart gone, i wonder. weakness and strength in conflict, fighting within, that i cannot be conscious of as i am awake. sleep seems to be the thing that fails me, even being the one thing that i keep hungering for. two worlds collide, they were different as night and day and yet they come, together like a meteorite crashing into earth.