trying is fruitless. it makes one look like an idiot. all those motivational crap is simply self consolation. optimism is a cruel joke. at the end of the day, you cannot trust anybody not to disappoint you, even yourself. the higher you climb, the harder the fall. no promises and no hopes will bring you no disappointment. come on, hit me hard. for i can fall no harder. when the heart fails to beat, pain will cease to exist.