Morning Reflection

this dull ache in the gut has been persisting throughout the weekend. so much so it has gone to the head and created sleepless nights. unhappiness reigns supreme and i start to wonder... is it even worth it to feel so affected? this is not my life. i am only doing this to create a life for myself but all this trouble that i need to go through, is it worth all the effort? why should i allow myself to be underestimated, under-appreciated and under-rewarded for something that is not even center stage in my life?